This little man thinks the wait for his brother, "Sure is taking a long time!".... I can't say I blame him either! It's been almost a year of us talking about Jude being a big brother and praying for Isa every night- so it's no wonder the questions like, "Is he coming home today?!" and "Do we get to see Isa's face soon?" are starting to occur. It's with his innocent questions that my heart aches and gets a bit impatient as well. While I'm preaching one thing to Jude, that "We still have to wait a while longer, BUT God knows the perfect time that Isa will join our family!"... I have to remind myself to believe it as well! This whole adoption wait sure is more challenging for me then the 9 month wait of pregnancy, I have to be honest! Yes with pregnancy there is the "ugh" of loosing what was once your body, and worrying every time you have to sneeze that you'll pee your pants... but you knew, that in 40 weeks- you would see the face of this sweet child that was causing you such discomfort! I really struggle with not knowing when we'll see the face of our sweet Isa! At times, I'm cool with it- and totally can hang on the truth of God's perfect timing- and then at other times, I stink at it! Like today, when Jude brought up the fact that "This sure is taking a long time!"... AGREED Jude, agreed! Just being honest about my impatience.
Amen. It sure is taking a long time! My heart aches a lot of days, but at the same time, I'm thankful for the wait because God is opening my heart to so much more during this wait.
ReplyDeleteWell said and I completely agree. I am glad I am not the only one that feels this way. ;) So thankful for you and your family!!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI hear ya Hilary! My little girl is almost 5 and she's been waiting for ages. Sometimes she cries and says, "I just miss my sister." Sometimes she sees things that she wants to buy her but she says, "well, we don't know how old she'll be...I guess we'll just wait." She sees her friends at school with baby brothers and sisters and it reminds her that she doesn't have one yet. I struggle with this aspect of our adoption more than anything else I think.
ReplyDeleteYou are in good company!! I've told many people that this emotion is so unlike any other I've experienced, I really don't even have a name for it. It's comforting to know that God's got our little ones in His hands, even when we long so strongly to have them in ours!
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